Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Brad. Of course that's surely ridiculous, to wish you a Happy Birthday, but how can I not? I still wish that for you. I still wish you were here in your solid human form.
Grieving stages be damned. There's still a part of me that believes its not true. That you will be here with a "Hey it's me" sometime. It's OK with me if I never really pass that. In the meantime, out into the universe - Happy Birthday Brad.
I Love You and I Like You

His name is Jason

Hey Brother.
Tomorrow is your birthday and it still breaks my heart that you are not here so I can call you old and give you a hard time.
The Manna family lost someone very special, his name is Jason. He is a Dad, a son, a brother, an Uncle, a dear friend, a cousin, and more.
He was loved by so many people and now so many people are broken. Maybe you and him will meet and you will see why he touched everyone he met.
Hmmm, sounds familiar huh? This has created a new deep wound for us and reminded us of our unhealed wound. I miss you little big brother, still more than any words can describe.
Keep an eye out for Jason. Shake his hand and say hello. I think you two have a whole lot in common.
I love you Brad.

Life is not

 Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a Ride!"

Hard week

Hard week. Hard times. 

Hard week, wish I could change it. 

I am

I am

Happy Birthday Brad

 Happy Birthday Brad.

Life is not long, or short -it just is. 

May you

 Happy Birthday little brother. I know you have been "helping" me with things, thanks. I saw this and it made me think of you. 

May you touch fireflies and stars, dance with fairies and talk to the moon. 

I miss you. 


Anything Land by Alyssa

 For those who don't know, Alyssa is Brad's 10 year old niece. She was 5 the last time she saw Brad but we talk about him a lot. This is a story she wrote at school today. 

                                               Anything Land

You know who you are

Brad is thanking you guys over and over for going where he needed you to be, and so are the rest of us. Thanks guys. 

Road Trip

 Brad's on a road trip to Seattle. He spent most of his ride on the dash so he can see the scenery and every once in a while I ask him "You really think you could have ridden your bike across country in this?". Maybe it's Brad giving me a nudge? But I have this sudden need to stand in Shorty's bar with him. It's a place he really had fun in and enjoyed friends, so we may try to go there. Part of Brad is going to rest in the mountains out there next to the pristine mountain stream. 

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