Marianne and I went to Brad's apartment. I talked to him, said a prayer and we left flowers (white) on the stoop where he used to sit and play his guitar. The day we moved his things, a neighbor came down and told us how much he enjoyed that and what a nice guy Brad was. I’ve been playing the cd Brad had in his player, I don’t know the name of the band, it’s in very stylized writing. The name of the cd is “Break The Cycle”. A line from one song is “I didn’t mean to slip away”.
I am so sorry Brad. You lost the most, and I hurt so hugely bad for your loss, but oh we lost so much too and MISS YOU.
The lady across the street lost her 15 year old son going on three years ago. She said the second year is almost harder, because you start to really realize that you will never see them again. Right now it’s still very fresh and it seems that we’ll put our time in suffering and then he will be here and it will go back to the same as it was and we’ll have him again. I know better, but that’s what it feels like right now and I wish it were so.
I like Brad’s light on this week. But somebody could have pointed out how hard it was going to be when the time came to turn it off. Oh boy. It may be on for a very long time. Thank you Brad for the energy efficient bulb.
In an ideal world, none of us would have had to work today, and we’d all, Brad’s family and friends, be together today. Just hang out, tell Brad stories, and help each other through this. But, in an ideal world, Brad would be here and we wouldn’t have to.
I hurt for all of you too.
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