Happy Birthday

Sorry Brad, this year I don't have an upbeat or funny thing to say. I hope to god that you and Vinny found each other up there. I wish so much that you were here for me to cry to. Brad, life is hard. I am getting beat down and it is so hard to watch my kids getting beat down too. It is bad enough when this world keeps kicking the shit out of me but now it is going after my kids?. I am powerless to stop the endless barrage of tragedy and now I barely have the strength to be there for my them. 

I miss you. And now, I miss my baby boy so bad it has broken me. I am broken Brad. Broken. I wish we could talk, now more than ever. I wish I could talk to Vinny. There is so much unfinished business. I love you little brother. Please find my boy and let him hang out with the gang. There are so many of my loved ones up there already. He definitely won't be lonely anymore. Make sure he finds his baby sister.