Directed by Anton Corbijn
Based on Deborah Curtis's biography “Touching from a Distance,” “Control” follows the rise and fall of Joy Division lead singer Ian Curtis, from his youth to his suicide on the eve of the band’s first American tour in 1980. 122 min.
I saw this movie last night, and ran from the theatre sobbing. The end was just a bit too real for me. Too much like what happened the night Kris & I went to Brad's apartment.
But it was an empty pain. I wanted to call someone to share my emotion, but didn't know exactly what to share. It's not that people weren't there for me, I just had no idea what to say to them. Brad's dead. I'm sad. The movie reminded me.
I had a good cry, and went back into the theatre for the post-movie discussion.
That's it. No epiphanies. No profound insights. Just a brief jaunt through raw human emotion. Nothing changed; I'm no different because of it.
I did wonder, was this band Brad liked.? But if it is, what was I doing at the movie? I feel like an intruder on a part of his world he didn't intend me to be in and that I don't really understand. If he didn't know of or like the band, than I've learned nothing about him.
I only just now understand why I'm writing this blog. - Because I want there to be meaning in my experience. But there isn't.