God damn it Brad! I just ran into JR and he told me. I'm so pissed off at you right now. How could you just go and waste such an amazing person? I know I've been distant for a while, but I always thought I could pop back into your life and laugh about the past with you. You've really gone and done it this time. We were supposed to go out to sushi and speak bad Japanese. FUCK!
I guess we were never really close, but you've always meant a lot to me. I would have helped you in anyway that I could. I regret all the times I almost sent you post cards and didn't, or almost called and didn't. I regret not knowing about the funeral. This really sucks, Brad. It sucks really fucking bad.
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Those who remain distant...
Sun, 10/05/2008 - 12:29pmRebecca,
I'm so so sorry you found out after the fact, but I am glad you signed up and wrote something, even if it is the only thing you ever write (i hope not).
I, too, am one who can be out of touch for a long time and assume all will be well when I reconnect. It has been this way for me and my friend Tom since we got out of high school. I think it is the same for my friend Travis, but I think he may expect more. I hope beyond hope that they have some system set up to make sure I am informed that they are in trouble (or worse). I can be away from them and out of touch for years and years, but they are still in my heart.
At my uncle's funeral, I tried to tell the family that, while I didn't stay in touch, I felt comfort knowing they were in this world, that I had "people." I said that, now that one of us is gone, I feel it. This goes for friend's, too. Even for mild aquaintances. Rebecca, you mentioned that you may not have been close to Brad... maybe the people we are closest to are the people that we feel most comfortable with. Maybe they are the people for whom we don't feel a need to confirm that closeness on a regular basis. We feel them in this world and we are glad. We think of them often, sometimes it is painful because we are thinking of them as someone we should be contacting more often!