Changes

I feel like since Brad has been gone I have been in a funk. Haha... thats hilarious, of course I have been in a funk we've all been in a funk. I don't want to call it a depression because its not always sad. My happiest time was when I was in California but having to push back my move out there didn't help anything. So I have begun overhauling my life. I chopped half my hair off. I got a new job.... no its not in a restaraunt. I gave birth to a baby girl... puppy... who is the thing that keeps me going. As much as I wanted to be logical and train her to sleep at the foot of my bed has slept on my chest for a majority of everyday and night since I got her (pictures to come). And with all those changes and knowing I'm moving to Napa Valley in December I still walk around and try to act normal while feeling like I am trying to swallow a grapefruit whole . Feeling like every person I meet I want to scream at them "I MISS MY UNCLE" like they are hiding him from me.

No life isn't fair.... but that doesn't stop me from wanting to throw a tantrum like a two year old and fall on the floor screaming and pounding.... "ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR!" I don't care whether or not it's supposed to be fair.

I felt like sharing that.