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Family gathering today. Just to be together, and also to celebrate his birthday of November 28th, honor, and share the loss of Brad. 

I was thinking of Brad's friends, as I always do. You are still a part of us and always will be, and we care. You were respectful on that awful day that we came together for Brad's goodbye, sitting scattered. But you came for Brad. While most came for his family, and needed and deserved to be with us, and I remember insisting you all move up to the row right behind us. We are warmed and honored that you came for Brad, and quickly got a clue why he was friends with you and cared so much about you all. 

Last time I left flowers and candles at Brad's apartment building as I do every year, I was playing a new CD on the way home. Suddenly I could hear Brad, laughing, chuckling, THAT expression on his face- you all know it- "Really Mom? Really? On the way back from there you are seriously playing Grateful Dead music?????" Felt chagrin, then I was laughing. 

We miss you Brad so very much. Always. Love you, Like you, 

Mom

 

Happy Birthday

I just wanted to tell you how much I wish you were here to celebrate your birthday. Not much is put up on this website anymore but you are still thought of and missed. Happy Birthday my Dear Son.
Love Mom

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Brad

I wish I could say it to you, living your life, with it being a real wish to you. I was awake at 2:28 a.m. remembering, missing you, as I do, we all do, every second. 

I found a vegan stuffed turkey roll-you would have been happy. 

That Thanksgiving/birthday dinner at South City diner with you and Emily still makes me smile and grin when I think of embarrassing you-no easy task!

I love you, I like you, i MISS you but I know for me, you are still with us, as we go about life. In our hearts and minds doing it with us, and I am confident it is true for all of us-family, friends, those you care about and who care about you. We keep going, as we must, but it's harder and there is less joy. 

Mom

heh heh heh

Don't you miss his chuckle? Heh Heh Heh

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Brad. Of course that's surely ridiculous, to wish you a Happy Birthday, but how can I not? I still wish that for you. I still wish you were here in your solid human form.
Grieving stages be damned. There's still a part of me that believes its not true. That you will be here with a "Hey it's me" sometime. It's OK with me if I never really pass that. In the meantime, out into the universe - Happy Birthday Brad.
I Love You and I Like You
Mom

Hard week

Hard week. Hard times. 

Hard week, wish I could change it. 

I am

I am

Happy Birthday Brad

 Happy Birthday Brad.

Life is not long, or short -it just is. 

Road Trip

 Brad's on a road trip to Seattle. He spent most of his ride on the dash so he can see the scenery and every once in a while I ask him "You really think you could have ridden your bike across country in this?". Maybe it's Brad giving me a nudge? But I have this sudden need to stand in Shorty's bar with him. It's a place he really had fun in and enjoyed friends, so we may try to go there. Part of Brad is going to rest in the mountains out there next to the pristine mountain stream. 

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